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The Blessing of Losing Your Faith

He contacted me after reading some of my work on depression, doubt, and anger at God. As we talked, he expressed affirmation of my rocky spiritual journey, because he battles with those things himself. My friend is a follower of Jesus, with a Christian website, and his writing is full of faith.

Then last week, a bomb arrived in my e-mail box.

Well, Joy, it’s been a couple of days since I told God to go fuck himself, and I still haven’t …

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Partial Faith

I was raised to believe that you might as well not ask God0 anything if you don’t believe 100%.  I was threatened with these verses in James 1:

“But it any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all men generously and without reproach and it will be given to him.  But let him ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea driven and tossed by …

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Interview With Jake Kampe, Contributor to Not Alone

I had the privilege this year of being a contributing author to Not Alone: Stories of Living With Depression, written by people who have suffered from depression.  We have openly shared our stories so that other people with depression will know that they are not alone in their pain.

I’ve had clinical depression all my life, and know the pain and isolation it causes.  I know the shame of crying uncontrollably in public for no apparent reason, panic attacks, fear of …

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What If Jesus Didn’t Die For Me?

He sat in a red chair and watched while I was raped.  I was only four, but I knew who he was.  Jesus didn’t do anything but speak into my mind, over and over, “I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere.  You’re going to be OK.”  And I believed him as I slid into darkness from pain and suffocation.

The incest went on for years, and Jesus stayed with me, more like a stray dog than God.  He followed
me into …

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Guest Blog by Travis Mamone


Maybe it was a long time coming after all. We’ve certainly had our share of arguments and disagreements during the past eleven years of our relationship. But my philosophy is if you don’t talk to God about your frustrations with Him, then they don’t exist. And for about eleven years my plan worked out, until that one day.

You see, some times God seems so real to me it feels like its too much for me to take …
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The Choir

“SHUT UP!!!!”

“I won’t,” she said, firmly.
“It’s time you face this, and I’m not going to….”

“BLAHBLAHBLAH,” I said again and again with my hands clamped
over my ears until I was done with my snit.

That was stupid,”
she said.

Silence.  “I know,
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Giving What I Need

Prepare to hear a blasphemous, un-American confession:  I don’t care about Christmas anymore.  God knows I used to, and I have the ornaments, lights, and Christmas cookie recipes to prove it.

So what happened to me? Did someone I love die, and I’m still in grief?  Yeah, something died, alright.  The celebration in Christmas.  All the rah-rah, happy-happy, be of good
cheer.  I’m not jaded because of  commercialism these days, though I hate it.  I am seriously pissed that stores are putting …

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How To Know We’re Hearing From God: Part 1

This is the first of a four part series on How To Know We’re Hearing From God.

The idea of having conversations with God wasn’t a part of my religious upbringing. Prayer was talking “at” God in appropriately reverent language about a limited set of topics. God talked “at” me through the Bible and the pastor. Pious Sunday School teachers could also be divine messengers, since angels don’t make house calls anymore.

But personal conversations with The Almighty? What would we talk …

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How To Know We’re Hearing From God: Part 2

This is the second of a four part series on How To Know We’re Hearing From God.

God wants us to know that we know that we know when He or She is speaking to us. We’re the ones that think we can’t hear – that is, until it happens to us. God’s messages to us are always very personal, and God will confirm it making us aware of things that we didn’t and couldn’t already know.

Call to Me, and I …

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How To Know We’re Hearing From God: Part 3

This is the third of a four part series on How To Know We’re Hearing From God.

God often reveals and/or confirms personal messages to us through Scripture. This is no accident or an incident of good luck. Remember that God will make certain that we know when we are hearing from Him/Her if we are willing to listen.

I’m still leery at times that I might locate a portion of Scripture telling me what I want to hear, and I’ll convince …

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